it started out and it was great. it was a new beginning. it was something that i wasnt expecting and didnt ask for but it happened anyway. and i was happy. and then we started spending time together and a lot of it. and then i made a promise to myself and it was something that i had to do. and i did a really good job of keeping my promise... until i didnt. and i didnt just not keep my promise, but i forgot that i even made it. it wasnt something that i was consciously doing or thinking about, it just happened. and i kept living life and slowly was becoming something that i promised that i would never be. and until about an hour ago i was still on the path of becoming this person.
and then an hour ago i felt like something was missing and i read some things and i found out that the thing that is missing is you. i realized what i was becoming and i remembered that i made this promise to myself and i stepped off of that path. i am no longer going to become that person. the one who doesnt remember you, the one who doesnt spend time with you, and the one who doesnt care. i am going to come back and be the me who i know i am and the me that i love. and the me who shows you that i love you. i am so sorry for the way that i made you feel and i am so sorry for acting the way that i have. i am so sorry that i didnt even realize what i was becoming and what i was doing. i have no idea how but somehow i am going to make this up to you and get things back to the way that they were and the way that they should be. i love you so much and i hope that you can find some way some how to forgive me... i miss you.
"brownie batter and cheese on the kitchen floor? CHAMP!!" -you.
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